Am I God?

When I woke up this morning, I had a strange feeling. A feeling that circled from mind to heart, logic to emotion and right to wrong. On most days, I would have called it confusion, but today, it isn't the case. It was not confusion, it was a strong feeling of doing what has to be done but weighing it in terms of moral and ethical conscience.

Weighing? Why do we need to weigh the moralities of a decision which you feel is going to do good for one or bad for the other if the intention is either of it? I am sure all of us take decisions based on how logical it is and what good it is going to do to us or the ones whom we have taken the decision for. Then why think about morality? We know the answer… “The decision we take, may not always be accepted”.

If the intuition of a decision is too high or rigid, we tend to go ahead and make the so called “people’ accept it and if the intuition is on the softer side, we tend to let it go, but that is only time bound, I assume. But, how many times have you let go a decision you made, unless and of course you couldn't take a stand on what you want. Interesting part of we humans comes up when we intend to take up that decision on a stronger note and we make sure that people accept our decision, by hook or crook.

These decisions, which may not be always beneficial to you or may not mean that you are not harming your own self or it might also mean something which might do good for someone else important to you. Let’s call this “forcing” a decision but if and when we do so IS IT NOT TOO GODLY? God forces his decisions on us whether we accept it or not!!!

How many times, decisions have been forced upon us knowingly or unknowingly. One is destined to be a cricketer…who made them one and whose decision was it…parents? Friends? One is destined to be an avatar…who influenced him? Followers? The ones who are not involved in that decision might be humble enough to say it is “destiny”. There is an old saying that “together we can make or break”. When one decision from too many people coincides they make it happen. Most times…it applies to individual decisions too.

GOD….? You don’t need powers to be one. You need not pull up the sun for it to rise or the moon, to balance life. You don’t need magic to make things happen in an instance. But one thing that makes us human’s equivalent to god is the way in which one “forces” decisions. God does it for good (they say)…we do it for good as well. Who’s good? Hmmm that’s something that one needs to debate about…

I took the turn when the sign said so.
I took the turn when the sign said so.
They said I was wrong…
I read the sign when the time said so.
They said I was wrong…

Swept by the time,
Stood by the sign,
I started being right...
As I was forced with a direction.

Learning was not tough.
Staying afloat was not enough.
Heard them say...
God has a reason, so why make it rough?

Learning was not tough.
Staying afloat was not enough.
I wrote my line...
God has a reason, if I give him mine.

I took the turn when the sign said so.
They said I was wrong...
I had my reason and took them around.
I read the sign when the time said so.
They said I was wrong...
I forced my reason and lead them along.

We blame God for something that went wrong and we thank him, at times, for doing something right.

As an individual you are judged as well, when your decisions go either way.

Except for the magical touch and the miracles that we heard about…there is a lot to compare between the two. Everyone has this intuition….everyone takes a decision at one point or the other…everyone, once in a while, force their own reasons… and all of this boils down to a question…Are you a GOD, in your own limitation? Are you a GOD, with your own reason? Are you a GOD, to think what is right and what is wrong? Are you a GOD, to own the responsibility of doing good or bad?

Are you a GOD? and Am I a GOD?