Sunday, November 11, 2012

Aberrations...

Stepping up and stepping down,
Pondering the steps along.
Stepping up and stepping down,
Wondering where the next step belong.

Moving fast and slowing down,
Thoughts are on top of the crown.
Moving fast and slowing down,
Wondering why these thoughts come along.

Running hard and stopping by,
Questioning the mind, how and why.
Running hard and stopping by,
Waiting for them move away.

Unfolding the moments.
Upholding the beliefs.
None had the heart to stay,
Left the mind, doubting the pain.

Unfolding the will.
Upholding the strength.
Reasoning the heart to cry,
Stood there and watched them pass by.

Life has too many aberrations and none of them are destined to stay. One door closes and the other opens, but one needs to allow the door to close, "Will" or "Choice", basis the situation. If "Will" preserves itself, doors will open up better than the previous ones. Too many doors might be confusing too, but in confusion you might be letting go the one which needs to be kept open, forever.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Still Durable...

I started scribbling words years back and called them writings. I did not know what to write then and I do not know what to write now. When I started, I came out with soft and subtle writings which of course were part of the heartfelt feelings. With time, cuts and bruises, words got harsher and harder to come by. Nothing much has changed around but nothing appears as beautiful as it was earlier.

Perspectives have given way to the epitome of cautiousness and virtues. Principles got battered by the forces of nature and dreams pivoted the social fundamentalism.

At times, defying the normal course of travel might lead us to an adventure, but we will still be criticized for defying them. We might be running on a line in the dark, but with a path in sight, how much does a few minutes of darkness count? If realizing the need is not important, then how important is the reason for living it?

Bundles of pages and words are wasted trying to impart prophetism of social chaos that no one ever perfected or will.

I feel the pain you plan for me.
I feel the force you use on me.
I feel your presence.
I feel your pressure.
I am not done and dusted yet.
Show me what you still have for me.

I see the blocks you laid for me.
I see the forests you grew for me.
I see your actions.
I see your mockery.
I am not done and dusted yet.
Show me what you still have for me.

You stacked me up with your reasons.
You broke me down with your games.
You cut me.
You bruised me.
I am not done and dusted yet.
Is that all you got for me?

There is definitely anger in this, but how much can one shout at nothing. Confusing the choices with compromises and reasons with limitations will surely help us convince others, bit not ourselves.

Monday, September 3, 2012

Absolutive...


“Don’t tell me how much you are educated, tell me how much you have travelled and the rest defines your wisdom.”

Cannot recollect where I have read this but it was a long time back and still remains occupied in the same place in the mind when it was first struck. Having had a chance to travel a bit, people to meet, places to see and time to fight in peace, it feels good to understand simple things around us and today if I don’t travel the restlessness in me creeps in. I am not sure what it got me but I find calmness, I like the unknown explorations I can capture and it gives me more insight to what we hold on to, away from the busy crowded streets and never ending hunger to race.

When ice cold water flowing with a force pounds on to you, you feel at peace. When the dark forests holds on to you in the night only with the light from the moon and sound from the flowing water, you feel calm. When you drive on to the edge of the mountain and look at the unexplored valleys, you feel feared. When you see people walking over the mountains up and down to their daily living, you feel blessed that you have all of it without a struggle.

You see people madly in spirituality and you also see few making money out their madness. You see nature at its furious state and the beauty when it is furious. You see places calm and pleasant as autumn but cannot reach them to experience.

Small and simple things you left back in your busy world makes you think how important they are to you and how left out, at times, they are. Not out of agony for finding something but for search of what lies within you makes you realize what you have and others don’t.

In search of light, you find a path.
In search of answer, you find you.
In search of adventure, you find rest.
In search of facts, you find life.

In search of beliefs you find faith.
In search of a place you find people.
In search of achievement, you find completeness.
In search of nature you find peace.

Not all travels start with a search but all of them end with a finding. At times I want to tell people around me to travel and most of the times I end up forcing them, I don’t mind doing that as long as I am able to win it for a good time out. I have also seen few people confining their boundaries to a place and people, all their lives. It is difficult to communicate with them for them their beliefs is what holds them up from the rest of the world. But for the ones who has not seen the world cannot compare or talk about it.

Travel, not in search but in tranquility. Travel, not in agony but in joy. Travel, not in targets but in Absolutiveness….

P.S: There is no word called “Absolutive” I have joined them from “Absolute” & “Positive”. :P lol

Chasing a Change...


We spent countless days under the deep dark sky and tried doing something that was impossible. We failed every day but the next day was a new beginning and tried to do the same thing again and again. Counting stars was and will be an impossible task yet we had that enthusiasm to do so every night that we spent on the roof top. When we look back we see a lot has changed over the years, we don’t even look up to the sky on a dark night anymore. Stars are still visible, in small number though with all the pollution in the air, but we don’t even try to count them.

We blame our busy lives and loaded work of the day, we get tired and we stoop to the ground by the time night falls. Yes, i do agree that a lot around us has changed over the years but there are times when we ask ourselves....what exactly has changed?

We woke up to the chirping birds,
We walked along the road in herds.
When wake up calls replaced the need..
We realized time had changed.

Playground was not defined,
Games were not rehearsed.
When gain replaced the pain..
We realized time had changed.

Getting drenched in the rain was fun,
Living in the moment was given.
When seasons stopped with reasons..
We realized time had changed.

People were around,
Situations were sound.
When distance replaced achievements..
We realized time had changed.

We define a requirement and then add value to it. When a value is added, we then define the need. When need is achieved we look for a new requirement. When we look back we see how much everything around us has changed we never look within to find how much of us has remained.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Iterations...

Long time back in a land far from the known, a valley, there used to be a group of people untouched by the then modern beliefs and their conceptualities. The group was happy, living their lives they know and did what they have to do to live, love and survive. They lived in a rock solid shelters under the roof of the night with stars staring down each night to tell them a new story, calming and nurturing them. Life went on in peace and no one in the group knew the word “complain”. One fine day, an explorer turned peasant, from the modern world, lost in the woods for days and considered a loser by the elite group of the modern explorers walked into the habitat and was amazed to see at the pleasant valley, its natural beauty and happiness in the people around. For, till then, the group living in the valley was unaware of any other being other than them living in a far land, they were surprised too.


The peasant stayed with them for few days and enjoyed every bit of life he would ever wanted in the name of explorations and search for peace. He realized that he achieved what he set out for and decided to return to his land to preach his people and tell them what they were running after is right there with them and they named it “life” in the modern terms.

The group in the valley was however, amazed to know people like them existed in a far of land and the stories he brought about the far land he lived in. The stories had leaders who led them, people to serve them, animals in complete control, clothes to cover them and food without a daily struggle. But, the group was still content and happy to have what they did and in a few days they led their life as they always did.

Returning of the peasant to his land marked an important day as all the people in their town gathered to know what enlightenment he brought with him from his explorations. He explained about a valley existing in a place far away from theirs and there was happiness, peace, love and content in the valley. He also explained that he learned that those were not out of the place but out of the people as they did not share a feeling called “ego” and a word called “comparison”.

Few days later, another peasant visited the valley, lost and battling. He brought with him more stories of a different land and took back with him the most wanted principles to live a life. Days passed and the same thing happened again, another peasant visited the valley and this kept continuing for another year. Now the group in the valley started contemplating of how great the life in the far lands were and how different each one’s life was. There was much more comfort and bright life, they thought.

Over a year, the valley had its share of unhappiness with the stories from the peasants taught them, to make leaders in the group, to divide and designate work and to control the happenings.

When the next peasant arrived, the group in the valley decided to go with him to the far lands for a happier and comfortable life. They did not know what trade meant, so the peasant who was supposed to take them to the far land, would keep the valley for himself. The peasant took them to the leader who was generous to allow them to work for him, they were given food what everyone had and they were also allowed to stay in a room were rest of the leader’s men were allowed to sleep after a daylong work. After some time, the group was unable to find what they wanted. But, wanted to give some more time to see if they get all they assumed would be here in the far land. Days past and so did the time and with time passed all their hopes, they were feeling restless, unhappy, dejected and lost. After a discussion within the group they decided to walk back home to their valley in search of what they left out there.

After a long walk to their land, when they reached the valley they were surprised to see that the valley changed. The valley changed a lot and there were a lot of people in the valley. There were houses as they found in the far land, leaders, controlled animals and priced food. They were shocked and decided to approach the leader, it was the peasant who took them to the far land. On questioning, the leader said, that when he was dejected and lost in the far land of his existence he started exploring and came across this valley and all of you readily wanted to move out of the valley and I got to keep the valley. Here I created my land where I am leader and I rule the place. I give people employment and they work for me. The peasant offered the group to work for him and he would pay them for their services.

Now, where do the group belong? what is their land? what is their identity?


I don’t know what this story would bring out in the mind of the reader what I see here is somewhere down the line of the past, we as the human race missed a string and took the wrong path of achieving, over achieving and achieving beyond reach. We cannot go back and change it because that change was permanent and gone. We started well, we were happy and content until a reason is put into our heads that something better would be good for us, we took the path and today what is left is “Egos” and “Comparisons”. What went wrong is an assumption and is not important, for me, what is important is what is being missed. Step to step there is a comparison of needs to over achieve. Over achieve what? Freedom? Happiness? Reasons? Ahh reasons… have you ever felt like doing or saying something without a reason? We have reasons for everything we do or attach them where ever required. We are now streamlined beings, “human” can be replaced, I am reasoning here.

How many facts do you realize that you know that does not have a reason. Pick up a fact, now think what is a reason for this fact.. are you reasoning the fact or incorporating it? We adapt to the facts around us that we believe in. have we ever thought of going beyond those and see how our facts stand or falter in front of the facts that exists in a different place? No. Are we trying to be content to believe in what we have is good or are we trying to be content only to get better off the facts that surround us? If that is the case then we need to question what content means to us. We were brought up with these ideologies and they will not die whatever the situation is… when need is met, necessity is overridden and when happiness is met, content is overridden.


We contemplate and alter the benefits but not the beliefs. This technical glitch will never change. I guess we are the product of iterations from a power and when HE sees that this technology evolved in the wrong direction...it will be wiped out..again!!